Saturday, July 23, 2016

Looking to Christ in Seasons of Difficulty

I'm struggling with the weight of all of these things.  I need to reflect.

  • My insurance is changing due to my new job. It looks like I might be eligible for free healthcare in the marketplace due to my low income, but I am not sure if this is a viable option yet or not.  I'm waiting on some phone calls.
  • With the knee "crisis," I have many appointments still in the works which might be happening in the middle of all of this insurance switching. 
  • The anxiety behind wading through social healthcare is making my head spin.  
  • My MRI results say that there is nothing wrong with my knee except for swelling of the synovial fluid.  This is leading me to pursue seeing a rheumatologist and to try to rule out autoimmune issues.  It could also just be bad bursitis. 
  • I've been seeing a really sweet nurse practitioner at a convenient health clinic for my primary care needs, but now I'm thinking that I need to go to a doctor.  I'm looking for someone who is open minded to a holistic approach (while I'm not opposed to medicines, I am willing to change diet and lifestyle).  I also need to find someone within the new network of whatever insurance I get.
  • My 16 year old vehicle has a leak and the parts to fix it have been discontinued.  I have no money to buy a new car, so now I'm just going to have to save while I wait for the vehicle to die and pray that I will have enough money for a good 4-wheel-drive vehicle when the time arrises.  
  • My new job training started yesterday and I like the school heaps, but it's all day every day and high energy.  I'm nervous about how the knee is going to hold up with all of the standing that the job requires.
  • My god-sister who is also one of my dearest friends just left for a long road trip with her new husband and will eventually land in her new home across the country. It's hard to lose what Montgomery would call a bosom buddy.

On Wednesday, I went into the little mobile chapel that our parish has.  I saw that the stars had been freshly painted on the cupola.  I was reminded of Psalm 19:1, "The heavens declare the glory of God; the skies proclaim the work of his hands." The sky is always over us, leading us to the author and perfecter of our faith.  I know that amid what seems like chaos, Christ reigns on high and HE is unwavering.  He doesn't change in His love for me.  He knows what I'm going through better than anyone.  He will be there with me in every circumstance that I'm facing.


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